Sunday, June 21, 2009

A positive message, with love, from Brandi...

I love you.
I value you.
I pray the best for you.
I hope everything great in your life multiplies.
All the health that you have,
All the wealth that you have,
All the love that you have, multiplies.
All that I have for you are positive thoughts.
Have the same thoughts for yourself.
Be thankful for what you have; and know that all the positive aspects you wish into your life, will come into your life.
Whether you believe in God, a spirit, faith, fate, or whatever.....may that force allow into your life, all the positive things you need/want.

For those of you who wish for self confidence, start with all the things about yourself you already love.

For those of you who wish for money for a certain cause, think of that cause, and know that the funds will come.

For those of you who wish for understanding, know that you will understand when you open yourself to understanding.

FOLLOW YOUR BLISS

Im sending this positive vibe towards you, in hopes that you will pass it to others.....

~brandi~

Saturday, June 20, 2009

a poem

THUNDER STORM

She dances in one swift move across the purple-blue thoughts of Detroit Twilight
hair wild
back arched
legs spread
each perfectly painted, climax-colored toenail, pointed.
she grasps at the heavens as she thrashes
weightless
against his force

He hums
a cacopheuphonic surge of audible ardor
a rolling mellow moan, elusive to male trachea
his divine violaceous force
trembles
stirring neighbors from their slumber
to gaze from distant windows

i gaze

watching as, against his rhythms,
she laughs
wildly
biting
seizing
clawing at the fleshy 'S' of his back
creating the shape of God's spine with all ten lunula
ripping open universes
etching an exotic abyss
into which they both begin to

pour

infinity becomes
fluid
as stars begin to
melt
a molten passion
precipitates
onto the shared humidity
forming cool drips of familiar
ecstasy

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Facebook PooP

LoL I thought this facebook note thingy was kool...so I decided to paste i here too!

1. My ex is...
a very creative person. He's proof that there is more than meets the eye.

2. I should learn to...
know the difference between accepting the things I cannot change and when to have the courage to change the things I can.

3. I love...
life.

4. People would say that I am...
different.

5. I don't understand...
why people try to understand things that aren't understandable. Everything doesn't need an answer, ya know.

6. When I wake up in the morning...
I say thank you. Then talk to a loved one on the phone. This morning it was my mom :)

7. I lost...
the things that needed to be lost so I could gain the things I have gained.

8. Life is...
weird. -Eli Lunik

9. My past taught me...
why the present is such a gift.

10. I get annoyed when...
I lose my grace. Then I realize that i can "un-annoy" myself without demanding change in my surroundings. Then I proceed to accept the things that I cannot change. ~Grace~

11. Parties are...
better when people are conscious of the fun they're having.

12. I wish...
every time that I wished, I'd say thank you instead.

13. Dogs and cats...
are confusing matters to me. I would LOVE a pet, but I would want it to be free at the same time. I don't like the idea of "owning" an animal, but I do enjoy the thought of be-friending one. Silly Silly Brandi's. lol

14. My childhood pets...
died. LOL!

15. Tomorrow is...
not promised. And that's why today always rocks!

16. I have a low tolerance for...
people under the influence of alcohol. I'm sorry, but you made a conscious effort to drink, so I have no sympathy for the actions you make thereafter......boo hoo, mickey mouse clube bee boo bee boo [lmao @ jnorm]

17. If I had a million dollars...
I would pay off all my school fees, loans, and debts. Buy a car and learn to drive. Buy my mom a nice house. Buy my grandparents whatever they needed. Take my great grandmother out of that hell hole they call a nursing home. Give Brandon some cash. Start a small colllege fund for my little sister Jasmin. Buy some 3 pair of pants and 3 pairs of shoes. And take Larry [a very cool homeless guy i met last week] out to lunch. And save whatever may be left for a rainy day.

18. I'm terrified of...
I'm not really terrified of anything.

19. I've come to realize...
"Imperfection is the only perfect thing, just as the only constant thing is change." - Brandi Keeler


20. I am listening to...
kirby's radio show/ Detroit CYDI

21. I talk...
too much sometimes. lol

22. My best friend...
I have two. They are both my Heaven Sent Sisters. <3

23. My first kiss...
was with a guy with hair longer than most girls'. And I enjoyed that. lol

24. Love is...
a noun AND a verb. -grandma Florine
It is something so simple that it makes people confused

25. Marriage is...
not natural, but seems necessary for survival.

26. Somewhere, someone is thinking...
about you! So smile sweetie.

27. I'll always be...
me. duh. LOL!

28. The last time I really cried was...
When someone I loved thought that I didn't care about them.

29. My cell phone is...
currently showing a picture of my face which I enjoy staring at.

30. Before I go to bed...
I say thank you.

31. My middle name...
is average. lol

32. Right now, I am thinking...
that a boyfriend would be a great addition to this wonderful life. I share myself mentally and spiritually with my loved ones. How ever I'd like to have someone to share the triple play with. Anyone wanna swap thoughts, emotions, and kisses? ^_^

33. Today I...
am happy.

34. Tomorrow I will be...
here when it gets here.

35. I really want to...
meet my husband. Hes out there doing his thing, but we haven't met yet.

36. The person(s) most likely to re-post this is...
a person who is either
a. are bored
b. finds themself to be so interesting that they want people to read about him/her

37. The person(s) least likely to re-post this is...
a. someone who doesn't like people to know all their info
b. who feels this note is insignificant

38. My relationship with my grandparents...
has been improving recently :)

39. My most treasured possession is...
my writings.

40. My favorite pictures...
are usually of me being sexy or goofy, so pretty much all of em [stolen from aaron]

41. I sing...
to people i love or people im attracted to...eventhough i have a horrible singing voice. Its my way of saying "I'm comfortable around you".

42. If I was a crayon...
I'd be green.

43. Someday I want to travel to...
Egypt.

44. I am wearing...
A shirt my brother bought me ^_^

45. My favorite class...
hmmmmmm its between marketing and my digital cinema class

46. My favorite language is...
the language of love [the kind spoken with smiles, tugs, moans and sighs]....just being honest.

47. It hurts...
to see someone you love when they're hurting.

49. My profile picture is...
constantly changing lol

50. I need to...
get a magical genie to get me groceries and clothes...^_^ lol

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Astrology Rocks

Here are some good links if you're into the stars! They are accurate and i use them often!


http://www.crystalinks.com/astrology.html

http://www.sexualastrology.com/

http://astro.cafeastrology.com/

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and here's an interesting read: http://www.novareinna.com/constellation/bible.html


hope you enjoy ^_^

Monday, June 15, 2009

Granparents Rock!

I know many people who have lost their grandparents in their lifetime. Crazily, I have five of them! I have 2 grandmothers, 2 grandfathers, and one great grandmother. I've come to the realization that I have been quite ungrateful for this. Before this past week, I hadn't talked to my grandparents much, unless something was wrong or I needed something. It wasn't that I didn't love them, but rather, I never outwardly showed it. I felt that that should change.


Just today, I talked to my mother's mother and her father. I enjoy them very much. But sadly, before today, I had never called them just to talk. Of course we have had plenty of conversations in person, but there haven't been many times where i sought out interaction with them. I can't think of any reason why thought. I just assumed that they loved me the way that I loved them. Which today was confirmed by my grandmother, but nevertheless, it is always good to SHOW someone you love them (and that you're thinking about them), even if they know its true. Me and my grandmother (grandma Florine) had the most AWESOME conversation about love today. She is such a wise and beautiful lady. We talked about love, friendship, and God. She shared with me some great little poems that I'd like to share with YOU :)

Who has seen the wind?

Who has seen the wind?

Neither I nor you:

But when the leaves hang trembling

The wind is passing thro'

Who has seen the wind?

Neither you nor I:

But when the trees bow down their heads

The wind is passing by.

_____________________

Make new friends, but keep the old;
Those are silver, these are gold.
New-made friendships, like new wine,
Age will mellow and refine.
Friendships that have stood the test -
Time and change - are surely best;
Brow may wrinkle, hair grow gray,
Friendship never knows decay.
For 'mid old friends, tried and true,
Once more we our youth renew.
But old friends, alas! may die,
New friends must their place supply.
Cherish friendship in your breast-
New is good, but old is best;
Make new friends, but keep the old;
Those are silver, these are gold.
-Joseph Parry


_______________________

Part of our discussion was about love. Whether it was a sacrifice or not. We concluded that love is not meant for you to exhaust yourself and sacrifice ALL that you have, just for another person. However you can't love a person without some form of sacrifice. You must SHOW your love for another person, or they may not understand or even know how much you love them. That is when my grandmother sent me the poem about the wind. It is the perfect metaphor for why it is important to show someone how you feel. In addition to that, my grandmother dropped some words of wisdom without trying to be "quotey" and the words were profound to me. She said:

" Love is a noun AND a verb."- Florine Calhoun

Those were the perfect words for the question that had been scratching my brain recently. It remedied why some of my past friends and relationship partners may have felt that I lacked love for them. I used to suck at showing emotions and moreover love. But now I have some new words of wisdom, that I'm sure will help me in any instance where love is required.

Today I also discovered that my grandmother is just as "quotey" as me [if not more]. I look forward to future exchanges with her. When i was younger I remember always saying, "I want to be just like grandma Florine when I grow up. She's so graceful." I always used to brag about how smart and pretty she was and how I loved talking to her. Today she told me that she enjoys talking to ME and looks forward to our conversations. It made my heart smile really hard. :)

~Golden~

Duhisms LoL

My very good friend Breia told me about this site: dushism.com

I'm going to post some of my favorite duhisms:

Vegetarians die healthier.

I believe in reincarnation. May as well; you only live once.

You are a totally unique, one-of-a-kind individual, just like everybody else.

Looking for the meaning of life is like looking for the square root of purple.

The traveler sees what is there to see, while the tourist worries about somewhere to pee.

Don't pretend to be someone you're not. Pretend to be yourself instead

Visualize visualization working.

You can have everything you want, as long as you give up the limiting belief that "armed robber" would look bad on your resume.

Before you speak ill of another, look in the mirror… and make sure they're not standing behind you before you do it!

I don't believe in astrology. But that's typical for a Libra.

Salt. Sour. Sweet. Bitter. The Master has no preference. That's why he was fired from the restaurant.

If you do not try, you cannot fail. Plus, you have the added bonus of the story about what you could have done had you tried.

Whether you think you can, or think you cannot… you're just thinking… and way too much.

What would you do today if you knew, absolutely, 100%, that you couldn't succeed?

Why do we think money can make us happy, when all the guys ON the money look so depressed?

Solipsism isn't for everyone.

I have a severe gluten intolerance intolerance. Just have a bagel already!

All great ideas start in the imagination. So do the stupid, crappy ones.

Free will may be nothing more than an illusion. So, yes, I'd like to see the dessert menu.


Support

Ok so I have a few men who i consider to be my "dead baby daddys". They are basically historical dude who i think were effing geniuses (according to their quotes). Ok, so my top 3 baby daddys are
a. Albert Einstein
b. Mark Twain
c. C.S. Lewis

baby daddy C gave me some words of wisdom today which I feel relate to my last blog posting. In actuality I believe this quote describes my religious belief at best.

My argument against God was that the universe seemed so cruel and unjust. But how had I got this idea of just and unjust? A man does not call a line crooked unless he has some idea of a straight line. What was I comparing this universe with when I called it unjust? If the whole show was bad and senseless from A to Z, so to speak, why did I, who was supposed to be part of the show, find myself in such violent reaction against it? A man feels wet when he falls into water, because man is not a water animal: a fish would not feel wet. Of course, I could have given up my idea of justice by saying that it was nothing but a private idea of my own. But if I did that, then my argument against God collapsed too--for the argument depended on saying that the world was really unjust, not simply that it did not happen to please my private fancies. Thus in the very act of trying to prove that God did not exist--in other words, that the whole of reality was senseless--I found I was forced to assume that one part of reality--namely my idea of justice--was full of sense. Consequently atheism turns out to be too simple. If the whole universe has no meaning, we should never have found out that it has no meaning: just as, if there were no light in the universe and therefore no creatures with eyes, we should never know it was dark. Dark would be without meaning.--C.S. Lewis


Can't you see why he's my baby daddy?! Thats a sexy quote! lol

Tis all for now!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

YAY BLOGS....somewhere to release my excitement

[]= dictionary definition

*Foreword: This note is typed with the assumption that the dictionary definitions of the chosen words are correct. I personally do not believe that words/dictionaries are concrete. I believe they are abstract. I do not believe in absolutes (not even the one i just typed lmao) This note was simply typed for brain fun. My thoughts, beliefs and opinions are subject to change.*


[flaw- n. a mark, fault, or other imperfection that mars a substance or object]

I've been thinking a lot lately about 'flaws'. Whether they are things to be corrected or not. Or if any human can even define what a 'flaw' is? Are 'flaws' simply created in our minds by our inclination to judge and define everything? And if so does that mean that in reality 'flaws' are non-existent? I am starting to believe that flaws and perfections are the same thing. They are both non-existent and existent at the same time...

I believe God is omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent. I believe, that God has the capacity to do ALL things, because God IS ALL things. Is there anything, anyone or anywhere that is void of God? I would doubt so if God is omnipresent, which I believe God is.

A flaw is a thing that lessens the quality of something else. God is the ultimate quality because there is nothing exceeding or extending past God. To say that any one part of God's creation is flawed, in my opinion, would be to say that there is something flawed with a PORTION of God. This, to me, IS thinkable and logical. This is because no single object, aside from God in its entirety, is perfect. Or is it?

[perfect- n. having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be.]

To say that something is perfect, it to say that it has all the things desired of it.
My question is: Desired by whom?!? Desired by another person, or desired by God?
As far as I am concerned, I believe it is impossible for a human to even be AWARE of all the "elements, qualities, or characteristics" that can even be required and/or desired. Humans are NOT omniscient. Or atleast I haven't met any that are, lol. This being said, I believe God is be the only entity capable of:
a. knowing ALL the elements, qualities, or characteristics that can possibly be desired or required
b. desire or require these elements, qualities, or characteristics

From that thought, I would question: Does God desire/require?

[desire- v. to strongly wish for or want (something)]
[require- v. to need for a particular purpose; depend on for success or survival]

I believe God is omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent. In other words, I believe God lacks NOTHING. With that belief, I question what could God possibly desire, want or wish for, or require that God does not already have? God is omniscient, meaning God knows everything. Even the future. So if God had a desired outcome, why would God go against its own desire or requirements? Is it possible that God could go against itself? If God is omnipotent, which I believe is true, then the answer to the previous question is yes. God could go against itself.

But would God do that?

I don't know. :)

God works in mysterious ways.



Related and Concluding thoughts:

"Imperfection is the only perfect thing, just as the only constant thing is change."- Brandi Keeler

"If God seems to be in no hurry to make the problem of evil go away, maybe we shouldn't be, either. Maybe our compulsion to wash God's hands for him is a service he doesn't appreciate. Maybe – all theodicies and nearly all theologians to the contrary -- evil is where we meet God. Maybe he isn't bothered by showing up dirty for his dates with creation. Maybe -- just maybe -- if we ever solved the problem, we'd have talked ourselves out of a lover". --Robert Farrar Capon

The knowledge of God is very far from the love of Him. --Blaise Pascal

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

True friendship

Man I REALLY do have the greatest friendships in the world. Not the kind where everything is perfect all the time and we're always frolicking through the flowers; but rather, the kind of friendships that work through the best of times and the worst of times. Or even the mediocre of times. lol. I have friends who don't think the same as me...which ROCKS! I like being able to have friends with differing views and opinions on the world. With our friendship, we take our differences and make them into things to be cherished and learned from, rather than things to be corrected. I have friends who don't judge me for my flaws/mistakes, but acknowledge them so that i may make my own choices of how to deal with them. I have friends who genuinely care about me, not because they expect things in return. My friendships are forgiving. Me and my best friends ALWAYS work out our problems, no matter how big or small. My friends are the types of friends that philosophers and great people write quotes about. I couldn't imagine my life being this great without them being by my side. My friendships are imperfectly PERFECT! I love my friends. I've found that TRUE friendships are NOT the kind that never have any problems, or that each partner never upsets the other. But rather true friendship recognizes adversity, overcomes it and then grows stronger as a result.

Think about it. Many things, that are worth it in life, are worth working for. Great athletes endure great pain and many hours of training. If a sport is EASY, then their is no real accomplishment in winning it. Lol that's why no one knows the world champion for putt putt golf player, but everyone can recognize Tiger Woods. The same goes for my friendships (this includes relationships with my family). I am proud of them. They are the TRUE accomplishments of my life. They are what I cherish above all.

Shyt, they're so great, I can't stop writing about them! lol

quotes that describe my friends/friendships:

The better part of one's life consists of his friendships.- Abraham Lincoln

The happiest moments my heart knows are those in which it is pouring forth its affections to a few esteemed characters. --Thomas Jefferson

I'd rather have two good friends, than 500,000 admirers.-- E.E. Cummings

Oh, the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person! Having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all out just as they are, chaff and grain together. Certain that a faithful hand will take them and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and with a breath of kindness, blow the rest away.-- George Eliot

Don't flatter yourself that friendship authorizes you to say disagreeable things to your intimates. The nearer you come into relation with a person, the more necessary do tact and courtesy become. --Oliver Wendell Holmes

Perhaps the most delightful friendships are those in which there is much agreement, much disputation, and yet more personal liking. --George Eliot

Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter.--James Fenimore Cooper

A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. --Proverbs 17:17

Impart as much as you can of your spiritual being to those who are on the road with you, and accept as something precious what comes back to you from them. --Albert Schweitzer

In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. --Albert Schweitzer

When friends stop being frank and useful to each other, the whole world loses some of its radiance.--Anatole Broyard

A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere. Before him I may think aloud.-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

We love those who can lead us to a place we will never reach without them.--Norman Mailer

The friendships that last are those wherein each friend respects the other's dignity to the point of not really wanting anything from him.--Cyril Connolly




Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Roaming the Gem

So, I was actually supposed to write this blog on Tuesday....but I was too busy living life and such. But today is a nice rainy day, the type of day that is good for sitting down, writing, looking out the window and smiling. All that crap and stuff, lol. So here goes:

warning: excuse my horrible abuse of grammar. I'll probably switch back and forth between present and past tense, but its all from Tuesday lol


An Awesome Tuesday

So my adventure starts as a simple walk downtown. It was a sunny day, and I refused to stay cooped up in my apartment. I start my walk on Woodward. [my fave street in Detroit lol] I'm almost at Hockeytown when my mother calls and says, "Hey little girl with the hat and book bag". CREEPY! Turns out, my mother was driving past with a friend whom she was out to lunch with, and saw me walking. They scoop me up. Her friend was playing one of my favorite songs, 'Mr.Wendell', which ironically I was listening to on my MP3 before I got in the car... [MESSAGE!...read on....lol]

As I jam out to the song, my mom offers me some candy and we continue our ride. Her friend drops my mom and me off at the Millendar Center. In the Millendar Center, I run into a couple of my mom's co-workers/friends....My 'uncle' Myron was celebrating his 50th birthday so I hugged the crapload outta him and continued to my destination: The Public Service Credit Union.

I had a kiddy account opened there when I was 8 years old, and I decided that I would make it official and start using the account. I was ASTOUNDED by the balance, and super glad that I was no longer broke. Lets just say, now I have enough money to pay for this new expensive azz meal plan for next school year. So with that business done, I decided to go explore my city.

I walk out the Millendar Center into the bright sunny Detroit air. I love downtown. Its beautiful. I said "hi" to the Spirit of Detroit. Beforehand, I didn't too much like that they cleaned him up and took away any signs of aging. Somehow, today my opinion was changed. The golden globe in his left hand and the family in his right seemed to gleam a certain light of hope for the city. It is almost as if the gentle giant really did symbolize Marshall Fredricks' initial intention. It was a reassurance that made the rest of the journey even better. I couldn't help but to smile at everyone.

I walk down Woodward then I hoppe over to Grand River to visit one of my fave spots, DSE @ Grand. My boy James is definitely holdin' the 'D' down with his shop. James and I chatted about the J Dilla/Charles Hamilton fiasco, Identical Variant, upcoming Detroit events, and his upcoming summer shoot. I ran into some younger Renni alum, and we exchanged hugs and greetings. I bought two SWEET azz shirts and then continued my journey. Right next door to DSE there is a cute boutique called Sovereign Soles. It seems to be a sister store to Sole Sisters on Canfield. I went in and looked. The owner has some HOT stuff...Its a definite place to check out. I left and my tummy started to grumble.

I was going to visit 'Good Girls Go to Paris Crepes' [aka 'the crepe lady'], but I thought about my girl, Crystal, over at 1515 Broadway and decided to visit her instead. I was just there the previous Saturday for a schweet azz event that James was throwing....It is crazy how different a place can look from the daytime to the night time. That place is phenomenal and has the capacity to really transform itself. Anywho, Crystal wasn't there so I supported the venue and just bought a bottle of water.

My mother calls and offers me a ride back to my place. So I walk all the way back down to the Municipal Center and me and her ride back towards midtown. We have a nice chat. I asked her to drop me off at the Spiral Collective instead [I wasn't quite ready to go home]. I kissed my mother goodbye and headed into the venue. Let me tell you: The Spiral Collective has one of the best vibes. Its such a peaceful place. Its almost like walking into a tranquility garden. It has a book store [the Source Bookstore], an art gallery [the Dell Prior Gallery] and a very soulful little shop [Tulani Rose]. I love it! I'm greeted by Sharon Pryor, owner of Tulani Rose. She told me that she reads my quotes and messages on Facebook. She told me that I have a beautiful spirit [blush]. I was speechless and i couldn't help but to blush and thank her several times. We chatted about some of her awesome merchandise and upcoming events [which I will blog about soon]. After that, I purchased these FABULOUS earrings made by a local Detroit sister [whose name escapes me now]. I also purchased a really beautiful set of notepads for one of my sisterfriends.
*I bought the pretty blue pair*


As I was leaving the shop I get into a short phone convo with Ifoma, a local photographer, artist, fashion designer, lover of all things Africa and positive male spirit. I tell him I'm near his gallery [across the street from the Spiral Collective] and I express my extreme hunger. He replies that he's away, but he suggests that I try having lunch at Goodwells. I'd never been to Goodwells before. It is RIGHT next to The Spiral Collective and Flows. I went in and was amazed! It was a natural food market right down the street from me! They sold organic/vegan friendly fruits, veggies, 'meats', dairy, snacks, etc. It was awesome!

I told Ifoma that I'd try the food at their deli, so I went to the counter to order. They had NOTHING with meat! I was temporarily devastated. I figured I'd order the pocket sandwich, which Ifoma gave much praise. I bought a bag of kettle chips and went outside to try eating this meatless sandwich. The sandwich was made with tofu, bean sprouts, spinach, romaine lettuce, tomato, special sauce and then the slice of cheese i paid extra for, all wrapped in [what I'm sure was organic] pita bread. I took a bite and I was AMAZED! The sandwich was truly scrumptious. I didn't know a sandwich could taste good without meat. So as I happily munched away.

As I munched, a homeless man sat at the table right in front of me. He was a happy fellow. He looked up, smiled, then greeted me. I was quite surprised he didn't ask for money. I returned the hello and smile. I continued to munch and he pulled out a slice of pizza. We both munched and looked at the birds. As we looked, the sister who made my fabulous earrings pulled up and got out to go to Goodwells. I told her I just purchased a pair and thanked her for her craft. She went into the store and I continued to munch.

I started to feed some of my pita bread to the birds near me.....then the homeless guy starts talking about the birds. In a somewhat poetic type of tone. It was obvious he wasn't a crack head or a crazy person. As I continued to munch and share my bread with the birds, the man told me that he used to come to Avalon Bakery [right next door to Goodwells], back when he wasn't homeless, and he'd always buy an entire loaf to feed the birds. He mentioned that that was before he became homeless. I decided to politely ask him how he became homeless. He replied, "For political reasons." He took a bite of his Pizza, then decided to expand on why the reasons were "political". He explained that he used to be a radio talkshow host. He explained that his talk show was a christian based show, and a lot of his messages he claimed were prophecy and straight from God. He said some of the things that he said on the show weren't very liked by the government and their "secret service agents". He claimed that him and his colleagues (2 others on the talk show)...were fired for [hand gestured quotation marks] "budget cut reasons". He then explained that mysteriously every other place he applied for work at, turned him down. I partially believed him because he had a very well-versed way of speaking and an above average vocabulary. He was very good with English. Then we talked about his 8year old daughter. It was a nice conversation. I enjoyed his company.

I gave him the rest of my chips and a golden dollar coin. He was shocked. He said, in the most heartfelt way, that what I done was special, and that most people wouldn't do that. I told him, in the most heartfelt way, that there are tons of good people that are still in the world. I told him, with confidence, that I knew plenty of people who would share their chips with him.

He smiled and told me his name was Larry. I smiled back and told him my name. I liked Larry. Me and Larry talked more about the birds as we finished off our lunch. As I tossed the last corner of pita bread on the ground, I saw an odd sight. It was the first time in my life i saw a white and gold pigeon....it was like SUPER pretty. It could have been a dove, but I wasn't sure at the time. Larry explained that she was the wife of one of the male pigeons and he knew them back when they were just "dating". I got a good chuckle from the idea of dating birds. I thanked Larry for the awesome conversation and told him I'd look forward to the next one.

After leaving Goodwells, I walked back to campus with an aura of bliss. My day had been perfect. An adventure full of positive people, good food, great purchases, good spirits, and even pretty pigeons. I ran into a friend/co-worker, Scott, and we chatted about the red wings and our upcoming mentor summer job. We shared a few laughs and smiles. After that I ended my adventure, as I stepped back into the ACB.

It was a GREAT Tuesday!

What a gem he is missing, him who hasn't walked Detroit" -BK ~Golden~

Monday, June 8, 2009

Stuffz u should hear!

My ears have been quite happy 2day!

Doctor Illingsworth beat cd [pure dopeness in my opinion] http://www.zshare.net/download/61021979a7c5d5bb/

http://www.myspace.com/flyeriklbeats [his 14 beat sampler rawx my sawx!]

http://www.8bitpeoples.com/discography [ :melts: tons of delicious 8-bit music!]

thats all 4 now.... hope you enjoy!

Skype.

You should get one. Its cool! It's like the Jetson's television phone, except its not as tacky looking.

Add me on skype: Rasinbrandi

That is all. Goodnight loves ^_^

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Loved Ones

So on my downtime from fun and awesomeness, I sit back and reflect on my life experiences. Mostly the good ones, because tomorrow isn't promised and I'd rather not waste today on bad memories. However, when I reflect, I constantly think of the people who have entered my life and the impact they have had on me. Whether the person remains in my life or whether their stay was shortened; each person has lead me to the wonderful point I am at now. So this note is dedicated to the people [and persons] in [or out of] my life with whom I've experienced potent moments with. Each segment I write will be followed by some quotes that I think best describes my lessons/thoughts/relationships gained from my experiences with each person.

[this is not my entire list, i think I'll just do a few people a day]


Kirby- YAY! That's how Kirby makes me feel. To talk about Kirby, I must first rewind some time. In my youth and much of my early teen years, I was a jovial person. Always perky, always smiling, always optimistic. Then at about the age of 17 I started to encounter some of the sadder parts of life: heartbreak, depression, etc. Then at 19 I encountered even more sadness and problems. I had lost a lot of my jovial self. I had stopped smiling as often.

Then there was Kirby.

Kirby is a slice of sunshine pie. Even though she has had her share of sadness and downfall, she constantly remains perky. Many people think that because a person oftentimes appears happy, that they lack understanding of hardship; they lack a sense of realism; that they can't be taken seriously. WRONG. Kirby is a true example of strength. Despite whatever her personal storms may bring, she always remains a ray of sunshine in the life of others. That takes a lot. She is a selfless woman and is so enthusiastic about life and love! She has taught me how to smile again, even when it is difficult. She is a constant source of illumination in my heart and she is the reason I've been able to install positivity in others! She brought back my smile.

In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. --Albert Schweitzer


Danae- Oh chyld! Me and Danae have been through tremendous amounts of things. 2009 marks the 10th year of Danae's presence in my life. Each year has gotten better and better. Danae was and still is my very first TRUE best friend! She was my friend before I was even my own friend. She found value in me before I realized I had any value.

She installed in me confidence of self. Danae has installed in me a greater sense of passion. She made it ok to stand up for myself and stand behind the things and people I love. However the strongest impact Danae has left in my life, is her steady presence. Despite me and Danae encountering fights, arguments and breakdowns; she has shown the power of true friendship. The kind of friendship that grows from the dirt of adversity, and blooms into a beautiful flower. I could write a freakin book on our friendship! I love her dearly, and though we have different perspectives on a lot of things about life, we share a strong bond and an even stronger belief in God.
A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. --Proverbs 17:17

Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannot congeal in winter.--James Fenimore Cooper

A true friend is someone that knows the song of your soul, and sings it back to you when you have forgotten the words.—Anonymous
Patrick- Patrick was my first love. He and I sparingly talk now, but when we do talk I usually thank him for his influence in my life. I strongly believe that all humans have three essential elements: mind, body, soul. A lot of how my mind works has been shaped by Patrick. He gave me the starter tool kit for thinking outside the box. He made it OK for me to venture into thoughts that I previously thought to be forbidden. He opened me up to different views on religion, sexuality, society, etc. In a way, he set me free from my previous religious shackles. He allowed me to see the portion of God in myself and in everyone and everything else in the world. He showed me the value of knowledge and truth. He showed me how doubt could strengthen faith. He taught me that it was OK to question. Without his influence I might have never made the spiritual journey that I've made. In a sense he became a tiny baby Jesus who helped to strengthen my connection to my creator. lol.
First, rely on the spirit and meaning of the teachings,
not on the words;

Second, rely on the teachings,
not on the personality of the teacher;

Third, rely on real wisdom,
not superficial interpretation;

And fourth, rely on the essence of your pure Wisdom Mind,
not on judgmental perceptions.





~The happiest moments my heart knows are those in which it is pouring forth its affections to a few esteemed characters. --Thomas Jefferson~

Saturday, June 6, 2009

A good day

So I actually don't know the purpose behind "the blog". I'm not sure if blogs are for stories, or rants, or random babble, etc.. Are they like facebook notes where people just post random stuff? Or are they digital diaries that people share with the entire world? I'm not quite sure. But the great thing is, I really don't care. This blog, if I actually keep it up, will be the sporadic postings of a chocolate covered alien (me). Now with that non-needed information being tossed into the universe, let me begin!

Well actually, rewind again. lol. I'm not sure if a first blog should be like an introductory type thing. But if it should be, then I just fukked up my first blog. [lol] This blog will simply talk about my day...

WHICH RAWKED! [on a simplistic level]

My day started with me waking up at my mother's house (a very rare occurrence). I woke up, and decided that because my mom is such an awesome lady, I'd clean her house. So I got out of bed and started scrubbing and wiping and what have you. Following that, my mother came home with some groceries, so I helped her clean out the fridge and add her new items. Following that i had a home-cooked breakfast of omelet, toast, and bacon (which I decided to only have one slice of). Schweetness. Then I crapped around on facebook and twitter until my girls called (they call just about everyday) I talked to them and actually had a really good convo with my girl Danae. Then I talked to my best male friend, jnorm. He was goin through some things, but it was still good to hear his voice and be there for him.

So we fast forward to about 6pm me and my brother got back to my apartment and had this super awesome convo about people,relationships, sex, sexuality, parents, stupid people, sexy hispanics, God, etc...The conversation reiterated how awesome my brother is, and moreover how SCHWEET of a job our mom did raising us. My family is awesome....

So fast forward some more.......

Me and my brother walked to 1515 Broadway for DSE's 'Do the Right Thing' 20th anniversary event. It was a cool scene. 1515's part owner, Crystal, came up and gave me a big hug, and James, owner of DSE, came and took me and my bro's pic and we all chatted before goin into the show. The vibe was awesome. I love going to Detroit venues and events because there is always an abundance of love. There is some sense of family I have for local artists, venues, poets, etc. I LOVE MY CITY....I'm actually headed to DSE tomorrow to buy another kool shirt.

But you def should check James out: http://dsedetroit.com/
And you should visit crystal @ 1515 Broadway. They're always having open mics, fashion shows, plays and other awesome events.


Yea so after that more smaller awesome things happened...good convos and whatnot...and I lived happily ever after, lol.

so that just about concludes my first blog....nothing spectacular or full of my odd thought process..but I'm sure it'll suffice...

goodnite world! much love! look forward to sharing more random stuff with you :)

~Golden~